Realizations

1. Do not talk to your boyfriend when you super-duper tired. It makes the conversation go very negative and end up discovering phrases that should have not been verbalized in the first place. For instance, I told the boyfriend that he is a B- rated boyfriend - all out of my grumpy behavior and NOT a nice comment, I admit. Sorry boyfriend, I must have too high standard or something. But you are an amazing person!

2. Do not promise yourself anything when tired. You think you would get work done under any circumstance, but that is not true. Unfortunately, when you are tired...well, you are tired. You're not a ninja unless you think you are like my boyfriend (because he think he is).

3. Do not have high expectations of your boyfriend. This does not mean lowering your standard. I am merely saying that your boyfriend has a life too. He has a job, he's tired, and you should appreciate him for still calling you and thinking about you despite everything that is going on in his life. It's easier to be said than done, which I am learning my lesson each day always yelling at my own immaturity. I think being on his perspective make things a lot more objective; of course, you would want your boyfriend to do the same as well.

4. Do not stay up longer than you have to. When you're sleepy - go to sleep unless you have to be up for some serious reasons (like studying for a midterm?!) Missing that sleep cycle screws you over entirely. You end up in a state where you are tired but not sleepy. That is the worst state ever...for me.

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Why am I writing all these? Because I'm tired, and I shouldn't be up right now. Yet I am. So I am now going back to bed for a second attempt. Hopefully it's a successful mission. Weekend, here I come!