One last time

Today, I had no idea that combined choirs rehearsal was tonight at 7:30. Hooray Wonjee for not knowing! I totally blame it on my awesome four-day Easter break. Anyway, I was at full of disappointment, because I thought my day would be done at 6pm. Instead, it was 9:30pm that I was supposed to be prepared for.

After a quick come-back-home-to-eat-dinner adventure, I returned to the music building with my roommate Erika to attend the rehearsal. My body was tired from gruesome economics classes I had to suffer through and tutoring job.

The next project that choral program is working on is the scholarship concert which an annual spring concert event for scholarship donors. It's quite a neat event because of the type of music we get to present. Unlike previous years, however, the program will be much shorter and rather easier (which I really don't mind at all). The combined choirs sing 5 different English pieces by 5 different composers. I personally enjoy singing English pieces so this is much of a joy than a burden.

It had finally hit me tonight, the fact that this will be my last concert of college career. Unfortunately, I have decided not to continue choir the last year of college due to scheduling issues. Well, it was more than that but that was one of the reasons. As much as I dread going to rehearsals in the evenings with my tired soul, singing always had its ways of providing strength to me. Right then, I knew that things would become very different next year without having choir for the first time in my life.

Ok, honestly speaking, it hasn't hit me yet. It really hasn't hit me the fact that this will be my last concert in college. Perhaps, I'll feel that sense at the end of concert. Who knows. I did realize, however, that I was more attentive during rehearsal tonight - no matter how tired I was. I tried to soak in every notes, harmonic chords, and dynamics as much as I could. It was fantastic. Singing in an awesome mass choir is simply a great experience if you know what I'm talking about. Only few people can feel that rush of adrenaline, when everything lines up perfectly and creates the most beautiful tune on earth. I totally felt that tonight.

I fear that whether I will regret my decision though I really have no choice in order to graduate on time. Perhaps, that is why I was able to do choir for 3 years when I have double business major to worry about.

Anyway, that is my thought for tonight. I'm not too sure how I feel right now about this. Am I sad? Am I happy? I know it's going to be a mixture of both. I just know that April 25th might be the saddest night for me. We'll see what happens.