My perfect life...

Sometimes, I dream of a perfect life. A good imagination helps me thinks many perspectives positively and gives me something to look forward to in life. The things I dream of may seem far from reality, but it is a source of motivation.

I love nature. I love the mountain, the ocean, the lake, and even the park by my house. It's so peaceful and almost romantic [never though I'd use this word...]. They are the places that provide happiness to people and especially me. I dream of being with a wonderful man - holding his hand and walking together step by step. Don't need a single word involved to make me happy as long as he could just walk with me. Then, I dream of a family I want to have...couple of wonderful children of my own and an amazing husband.

I dream of taking a walk with my brother at a park every weekend. Asking how his day went, what he wants to do tomorrow, what we could make for lunch today, and all that. I dream of having my brother as part of my new family. My brother is a wonderful human being who came out to this world more vulnerable than others. My parents spent their whole life making sure he had the life he deserved. When they get too old to take care of my brother, I'm going to make sure he has a loving family he can spend the rest of his life with. I don't know, maybe I won't find a man who wants to spend the life with me along with my brother who will be involved every step of the way. I decided if that was the case, my brother and I can still have some fun life together. He is one strong, amazing person who struck around in a tough society - I am not leaving him.

I dream of living by the lake [or by the coast]. My whole family loves water. The sense of vast openness is a total indescribable feeling. It's so welcoming and yet seem to contain all the secrets of life. I enjoy watching the waves, the ripples - whatever I see from the water. I really would like to live near my parents. They're the only ones I've got in this huge country. And we're the only ones they've got since moving here. They left behind the country they've known their whole life - their friends, their family, their relatives, and their past. Everytime, I come home from school, I realize how much we both fill in their lives. I feel the sense of emptiness I had created in them from my absence with college.

I dream of leaving a footprint in someone or somewhere in this life. I want to be a good person. I want to be a good daughter, a good sister, a good friend, a good girlfriend, a good colleague, a good wife, a good mother...I dream of doing the job I love and still be able to take care of the people who had taken care of me in the past. I dream of finding that man who can understand all this situation and still consider to spend the rest of his life with me. I dream of being around with friends that I spend the day laughing. I dream of being a selfless person and be able to help people who are weaker than me. I simply want to be that kind of person and have a happy life. I fear that I may have to give up something in order pursue the necessity. I fear that this could be just all dream and never be accomplished.

Yet, I still dream about these things. Dreams that will make me happy. Dreams that will make me feel like a better person than I am now. Dreams that will make them feel like dreams...This is my dream of a perfect life.