This week has been a mix of frustration, stress, loneliness, busyness and everything else one could go through. I’m not sure why it hasn’t been the best week, despite the 4-day work week, but I think it mainly has to do with the fact that I’m juggling among two different work schedules (my GAship and internship), a full-time coursework and the overflowing question of “when are you going to start the job search?” Nothing is more stressful than every single person asking me about my intention with job search. Yes, it’s on my mind, but I haven’t had a chance to really figure out what I need to do yet.
It’s been one of those weeks that I disturbingly discovered students’ complete lack of courtesy or etiquette, and their unwillingness to engage in any educational activities. I don’t know where this trend began – or if we need more parents to actually educate their children – but sometimes those students make my job a lot harder. I shouldn’t feel so negative toward the variety of students I work with; however, I seriously believe that college is not for everyone.
I spent a whole hour just skimming through old pictures, something that would take me back to really happy times when life wasn’t as complicated as now, and then I found this one. It was taken on my first day in the countryside of England during a college choir tour. Life was a lot simpler back then; I wasn’t even old enough to think about the next step after college. Since Dallas had had no rain at all this summer, I miss the greenness. I definitely miss the autumn weather, which is not coming soon enough. Lastly, I miss being in a peaceful place. I love the big city and all, but sometimes its busyness, and the fact that I work for 36,000+ population of a state university, makes me go a little crazy at times. Overall, I regret not really having some time off this summer.
This is not to say that I had an absolutely horrible week – it was really ok, just not fantastic. Visiting home during Labor Day weekend didn’t help with my emotional independence; I really miss my family. And it’s been frustrating that Z and my schedules have been so off that we either phone tag or end up briefly catching up on each other’s day (Z just realized that a few days ago that I started school…haha). I’m certainly not blaming him for anything; it’s just we’ve just been way too crazy busy lately.
These long paragraphs of rambling pretty much resulted in my overjoy of welcoming this weekend. I’m glad I said “no” to some unnecessary commitments and concentrating on my own well-being. Hopefully I’ll get to find my inner peace and start the next week strong.
P.S- To my dear readers who tend overanalyze my blog posts, I am really ok. Please do not over-worry about me. :)
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